death comes to us all

lot of changes. havent really updated this this.

first off, my grand father passed away. so yeah, now he's in a better place and no longer suffering with alzheimer's. his funeral was yesterday. it was weirdseeing all my family that i havent seen in years. no one keeps in touch in my family. thats why i dont take it personal when friends all do the same. but i got to see my family from england as well as barbados. so hearing the clashing accents was entertaining. i wasnt reallysad at the funeral either. one point i to cry towards the end but..i didnt. just got a big lump in my throat when this older cousin of my mom's started talking about the "old days" and "memories" of when they were growing up. something i never got to hear about before. but yeah ...then i had to run to see my new place..and i like it. i went to work. got off early at 2 to make it to grand dad's funeral...then checked out my place. i have the keys and everything already. we'll see how this goes.

i also indulged and bought a heartagram watch off ebay. see?



..i can wear it with a nice pink dress shirt of something. i dunno. they had blue but i didnt see until after i bought this one.

my best bud richard went away to las vegas with my other friend ajani. I just hope they dont run into the wrong strippers or pimps out there lol theyre playing yet again at some video game tournament expo thing.

today i have some business to do. have to get a letter notarized for my son's mom. have to call and check up on her...check up on my son. make sure everything is everything as they say. moneys going to be tight now that ill live on my own. i was calcuand i dunno if i can afford japanese class every week anymore.which makes me kinda sad..because not only do i like learning it with someone else to help me but... my teacher junko is mad cool, and i dunno..it'd also make me feel bad for her. as if i was just quitting on her or..i dunno. whatever. but reality is reality. ~sigh~ i believe thats all i wanna say for now. feeling lonely. about to go bury my grand dad in about 30 minutes up in jersey.

"Paz para los muertos."